mist

"Come now, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit' - yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, 'If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.'"

James 4: 13-15

Live abundantly in today.

back in the game!

welcome back, sam!

yes, i have been out of sorts and out of commission for about a week now, replacing my daily times in the library with afternoons camped out on my couch, consuming cocktails of wal-phed, theraflu, and various vitamin c supplements.

but i am BACK! with both nostrils free for breathing, a cup of coffee, and a mini-mountain of work i'm kind of really behind on.

i may not be at 100%, but a functioning 80% is all i need to spend from now until 8:00 in the library, on my favorite row of computers, with approximately 10 tabs open to satisfy my attention deficit disorder. i shiver at the sound of a sneeze or cough, knowing that my beloved library is a breeding ground for H1N1 and all kinds of viruses and grossnesses. but i'm hoping that whatever i just had made my immune system Schwarzenegger strong.

:::this just in:::
the kid sitting beside me is listening to the West Side Story soundtrack suuuuper loud on his iPod and it's making me really happy. brings back good memories.

i have been learning...
always enjoy the Lord's presence first. focus on that, and peace will overflow into your relationships and activities.


some things i want to do...
i want to take some autumn pictures.
i want to be better at taking film photos.
i want to wake up early again instead of being in a sick stupor.
i want to work super hard on my school work.
maybe i should stop procrastinating.

listening to:
ray lamontagne pandora


reading:
hehehehe
new moon
don't judge!

some things i'm struggling with...
feeling like so many parts of my life are conflicting with each other in time and causing me to not give my best. i've been praying about this a lot, if there's something i should give up or put on hold.
either way i feel like i'm disappointing someone.
hm.
still praying about it.

okay, here i go! past the point of no return! or, as we say in astronomy, the "event horizon"
hahaha

i am sleepy and sickly

but it is o-kay!

tomorrow morning i seriously need to sit down and take time to knock out some school work. first i didn't have a computer for a while, so i had to do all of my work on campus. and then i started borrowing a computer and now our internet at the apartment is out, again leading me to campus. but i've been sickly so yesterday i said NO! to campus after my classes and just went home. i watched TV in my sweatpants. i fell asleep on the couch at 9. i cleaned out the refrigerator. i did not do homework.

also, i pledge to not drive my car long distances for at least a month. she's tired.

today it is so fall-y in boone. i'm celebrating with a pumpkin vanilla chai and my nerd glasses.

tonight i'm goin on a date. i might have to bring tissues with me.

open my mouth and this comes out:

the leaves are changing

i have good new music:



Jess Ray & The Rag Tag Army




i'm so proud of my friends. this music is beautiful and moving. it pierces right to the heart of the matter.


i bought some autumn scented tea lights and made a 45 vinyl dish to hold one.

i'm planning a 10 day trip in my head, cabin involved.


my head looks something like this:
scrambled eggs
Jesus is so good
letting go
i don't want to work at cfa this week but i need to make money and make a big girl purchase, hmmm
thailand
graduation application
letting myself be open and vulnerable
cambodia
raleigh
blowing rock with leaves and ipod and cider
flannel
homework
singing singing singing songs songs songs
i want to write so many more songs

a more eloquent post to follow.

rearrange

“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love” (Ephesians 4:2 NIV).

i needed to hear just that this morning.

sometimes i can be mean, out of line, angry, irritable, stupid, rash, wrong.
the list goes on and on.
praise GOD he loved us first so we could know what it even looks like.

we just can't do it by ourselves.