sunday night with coltrane

well, i'm finding myself in the library again. this time, in the reading room beside the fireplace that has yet to fulfill it's duties this season, and a latte instead of tea. gotta get things done tonight!

of course, i really should be working on homework, but i'm telling myself that i just need to spill some thoughts out before i cram more information in.

life is so funny right now. it's a miracle that i am here, and i need not forget that in the in's and out's of my day. it's just easy to, you know? when you have this due at this time, and you have to squeeze in dinner during this fifteen minute break, and you'd rather take naps than most other things. and classes are getting to that annoying part in the semester. i am thankful to be here. He is so good, and He is in it all.

i feel like i have been placed on a blank canvas, and i don't know what to paint around me. but that's okay. as unsure as it feels sometimes, i'm overwhelmingly excited. it's going to be a beautiful picture, and i get to stick around for all of it.

i'm here, i'm not sure why, but i'm trying to work hard and to find time alone to be with Him. His nearness is my absolute good.

so, i really should be off to write about coltrane for lovers and read about the history of islam and christianity. just do it, sam!