spinning

today is a chilly, overcast day in boone. for some reason, this is the only kind of weather i would accept for a day like today. Jesus is good to me, giving me weather like this to solace so many things, spoken and unspoken, in my heart.

sometimes, when i kind of self-depricatingly deny life-maintenance because i'm "too busy" or "too stressed" or "too hungry and i need to make kraft mac and cheese right now", i get to these points where i just need something to knock me spinning in the other direction. you know? like some point of force that hits me hard and it hurts but i need it.

at the store, we figured out how to hook up the stereo to music devices other than XM radio. so, i finagled some things around and hooked up my ipod today! i'm thrilled! i see this little store in a different light...
because of the change of (and control over) music, and mostly because this store seems like a little refuge for me. it's something steady and familiar to grasp on to while the rest of me is spinning back into direction.

laura, i realized something this morning as i was washing my face in the bathroom at work,
you deserve a good man.
like, a really good man.
i want him to be nervous when you draw him. is that weird?
that's a weird thing to say, but you know what i mean?
also come bring me coffee cause i'm dyyyiiiinnngggg!

more later, i'm just a little too in need of a day of life-maintenance to make any sense right now.

i miss a ton of people. you probably know who you are.

i want to wear jeans and a hoodie, and hide myself in the library with my laptop, and do a ton of work and studying, and eat and drink coffee on campus with my roommate's left over meal plan money.
gosh that sounds so good right now!

also must:
unload dishwasher
tidy up a bit
start laundry for break

also, i'm really interested in nashville, round two.
if london plans fall through, you know.
or boston. or san diego.
i think i just need Christmas break.