i think i'm a little bit, little bit

i love seeing the people i love so happy. it makes me so happy.

i love getting weepy and giddy and it being 100% unforced and uninhibited.

i love being around people that know me the best, laughing (really loud), crying (with ugly cry faces), praying (worship in spirit and truth), dancing (like total idiots), talking (we don't have to say much to know what we mean, so it's those words punctuated by glances where you know that i know and i know that you know). it makes me feel like the richest most beautiful woman alive.

i love having those moments where you feel like you could literally see what you see out of your own eyes in a movie.

sometimes it just hits me like a punch to the chest,

i am so blessed.

everything that is good is from the Lord!


heather nicole, you're getting married tomorrow to a wonderful man who loves you well. and i couldn't be happier for you!

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is it more selfish to be single all the time or be in a relationship all the time?

i was listening to this christian talk radio and they were saying how, the longer you stay single, the more opportunities for selfishness you have, and the more selfish you inevitably become, the less eligible you become for a successful marriage.

more cheetos, please.

it's 2 am and i'm nowhere near being super sleepy.

i watched idle hands (semi-scary, regret that)
i watched tombstone (awesome, semi-scary again)
i ate cheetos
i tried on bridesmaids high-heels-of-death (very cute though, all in the name of beauty)
i kept them on and then played my guitar in front of my reflection in my bookcase door window thing
tried to write a song
tried to clean up and failed so i'm leaving it for tomorrow
made a master list of things to do before i go back to raleigh in a few days

i haven't slept in my bed my bed in SO long, i'm too excited to sleep in it! maybe i should take a tylenol pm. i want such good sleep and i haven't had that in a while.


i wish i had a wall made of whiteboard so i could write lists and lyrics all day and always be able to see them, but erase them in an instant. this idea was recently on teen cribs, circa MTV, but i thought of it before i saw it. ask austin, i told him like 3 weeks ago.

this is the update

i'm sitting at my parents new(er) home in midtown raleigh. it is such an unfortunate situation that has brought them here, but totally within the Lord's providence and i really like this little place. although taylor swift's new music video did not come on vh1 as i had hoped, abc family is now playing the pilot episode of gilmore girls and i am happy, sitting in my PJ's and letting my life kind of swirl down to a stop around me.

friday june 26 - wednesday july 1

nancy and i drove down to raleigh for one of heather's bridal showers. i stayed a few extra days to get my bearings straight around the new house. dad and i walked to the farmer's market at north hills, which was really nice. i got to spend time with friends i haven't seen in a while, and just spend time in raleigh i haven't been able to spend. although this whole "not really having a steady job" thing is scary and stressful, i am really thankful for this time i've had to do things i haven't been able to do in a few years, like come home and stay home.

wednesday july 1 - thursday july 2

dad drove me back up to boone. we went out for dinner, and i did laundry to pack for nashville. thursday, on the way to nashville with jon dailey and his wonderful mom, i got the official "sam, i want to live with you!" text from the adorable whitney forman! what an answer to prayer.

thursday july 2 - sunday july 5

nashville. block party. brianne and her crazy antics. ian and laura. dutch blitz! mas tacos. red door. finding five points. 4th of july grill out. fido.

sunday july 5 (later)- wednesday july 8

lake gaston at dan's lake house. i love lake gaston. P90X. twilight. night cruise. breakfast feast. tubing. michael jackson. tan lines. waking up and not putting on any make-up or regular clothes... just a swim suit.

and now i'm in raleigh until tomorrow night. and then i'm coming back to raleigh next week for heather's wedding.
sheesh.