me sueño

last night i had a dream that i thought i had read a huge chunk of the Bible. from my dream point of view i saw that i opened up in the Old Testament and then i realized that i was already in Matthew. and i couldn't decide if i had read everything in between or not. but i felt very triumphant. reading the Bible consistently has always been hard for me, such a daunting task, such a delicate balance between reverence of the past, taking history and culture and writing styles and languages into context, and applying those spiritual themes presented to a new time, culture, and language. applying it to me.

and then i dreamed (or dreamt, whichever you prefer) that some girl i know, i don't remember who, became really successful at what she was doing. and i wanted to tell her because she didn't realize it.

i wish i could remember!!

i love good dream nights.



i keep getting more and more ideas for songs. i wish i had an upright piano in my apartment! since my guitar is there, i always pick it up and start writing, but i'm definitely not as skilled on guitar as i am on the piano. neither are extremely comfortable for me to play in front of people, but i'm working on that.

because when i see a stage, and i see someone doing what they do well on that stage, it's like fireworks go off...
synapses go crazy.

i'm jealous
i'm overwhelmed, in a good way
i'm hungry
i want to share my songs with people.
i realize how much work it takes to get from where i am to there,
and get there well.
doing it justice, you know?

maybe i'm thinking i'm willing to put in the work, finally.

me duerme, voy a viaje, yo rezo

tonight i will brush my teeth and crawl in bed and turn off the lights.

i will wake up at 7, get ready for class, and learn the last little bit of spanish i can before the final exam on friday.

on friday after class, i will leave with nancy for an unexpected raleigh trip for heather's wedding shower.

this weekend i will see heather, jess, whit, cat, steph, mrs. kay, mrs. ray, and all the other women in my life that remind me what it is to be a good friend, a good woman, and remind me that i am loved and prayed for even a half a state away!

i will see my parents new house, and inevitably be weirded out, and i'll try not to imagine that the ghosts of the old people living there before us are haunting me in my sleep, and then i'll probably try to ride my bike to north hills, wishing i was back in boone.

when i get back to boone, i will hang out with windy drive people because they're always doing fun things.
i will work out because i want to.
i will keep writing songs.
i will love this last college summer with my whole heart and "suck all the marrow out of life!"


dear Jesus,
thanks for hard times. i know there is a time we must walk through it.
i'm really glad it's not without you.
please provide a job for me. you know how much i need it, and soon.
chick-fil-a looks nice.
and chetola.
hook a daughter up.
and i know you saw this roommate thing coming.
i know you'll provide that, too.
i love you and i trust you.
forever and ever amennnnn,
sam

come now, let us reason together

some encouraging verses that i've really needed to see.

Isaiah 1:17-19

Seek justice,
encourage the oppressed.
Defend the cause of the fatherless,
plead the case of the widow.

"Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.

If you are willing and obedient,
you will eat the best from the land;



Luke 10: 8-12

Whenever you enter a town and they receive you, eat what is set before you.
Heal the sick in it and say to them, 'The kingdom of God has come near to you.'
But whenever you enter a town and they do not receive you, go into its streets and say,
'Even the dust of your town that clings to our feet we wipe off against you. Nevertheless know this,
that the kingdom of God has come near.'
I tell you, it will be more bearable on that day for Sodom than for that town.


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;a time to break down, and a time to build up;
time to weep, and a time to laugh;a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew;a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
time to love, and a time to hate;a time for war, and a time for peace.