nashville

i am sitting in the hyatt place hotel in brentwood, tennessee.

yesterday afternoon, as the sun was setting and making everything yellow-toned inside of the room, i thought to myself... i could do this. i was sitting with computer in lap, writing a response for my online Hebrew Literature class, taking notes on the loose-leaf paper to my right.

"i could do this" i thought. i would love to travel and write and walk with my God and have breakfast dates in cities where i have friends i miss and want to catch up with, over a cinnamon crunch bagel and fresh orange juice.

(i romanticize everything)

i miss being here. there is such a weird mix of feelings, memories that sting and have marked me, people i miss and i love. people i don't want to come across and things i don't want to remember. this is such a funny little town.

today we're going shopping at green hills and i'm excited to see what they have at anthropologie. it's like art i want to replicate in a less expensive way.

i have better thoughts. more later.

love to you this beautiful saturday.

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my stomach hurts.
and i have trust issues.
healthy choice country vegetable soup. good, and weird.
(i prefer mom's kind).
the Father is good and patient with me.
He is adventurous when every indifference in me screams that He's not.

other people matter more than i do. (thanks audrey.)