12:30, library

just going to take the quickest moment to update:

2 more days of classes.
2 exams.
1 poetry portfolio.

33 minutes until seminar. i'm still sniffly and consuming lots of dayquil.

it is days like today that i'm very thankful for the beautiful mac computers in the library, for hot tea, for sweet friends, for jd salinger, for nick drake.

i need to write some letters . i so wish i did not have to work in the morning.

i'm pretty sure i'm breathing loudly through my mouth, a horrible affliction on the silent floor of the library.

i've been writing so much poetry lately. and making my bed a lot.

nyc - one month to go.

goals:
eat a colorful diet
walk a lot
take multivitamin
keep praying hard
keep reading
keep writing
keep dreaming

whoever said that was right, you know, about being afraid ...

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

nelson mandela, ladies and gentlemen.
good words.

hey, i hope you guys are doing well. getting through exams, work, life. christmas is near!
love, sam