today looks like seattle, feels like the waiting room

this is the BEST part of the movie 'Stepmom' when the little middle school girl tells off her little middle school boyfriend by kissing her make believe high school boyfriend provided by said stepmom.

i wish i could spend the majority of my days doing the following:

going to farmers markets
watching movies on abc family
sitting in coffee shops with my glasses on to achieve optimum "cool nerd but mostly nerd but no really i'm cool" status
having someone teach me how to cook & bake in the kitchen
being in a perpetual state of warm weather
likewise having someone teach me how to sew
riding a bike with a basket (i know, this is really boring and it's been way overdone in the hopes of twenty-something romantic young women but REALLY, i want this.)
writing stories in moleskines (ditto)
making up songs and recording them not on garageband by myself.
taking pictures with my pentax that i don't own right now. she's out there.
looking at videos of julian smith and mat kearney and daydreaming up a man worth marrying.





darn my once having lived in nashville, thereby upping the chances of marrying one of these two untiiiiil i decided to move to the remote and quirky little town of boone, the heart of the highland.
aaah haha. hmm. all for a reason.
(must. move. back. with ring finger vacant.)
unless i move to the UK, where, God willing, i will meet an accented version of one of these two.
halleluh, amen and let it be.

ALSO, i wish my life looked a little like happy-go-lucky. i learned a few things from her. life is too short to be scared.



this here blog is my way of procrastinating on a few things, including, but not limited to:

working out
being productive at all
writing prayer letters because my future is a big black vortex of uncertainty peppered with hopes that seem too vague to touch.
cleaning
being content with the state of my life as is
studying spanish
writing papers / getting organized in my life as a whole
washing my sheets on my bed

gooooosh this movie makes me cry. like, not a little.



today, i started working at a new job.

and i think i like it a lot.

but i don't want to jinx anything so i'm not going to go into it a lot.

but i will say, i am learning a lot about cigars? and really interesting magazines?

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